Things people shouldn’t know about me

But are going to, at least on here, because fuck secrets right?!?

Deep down, I’m almost so apathetic to the point of suicide. Like everything I do, there’s always a voice in my head that say just give up, fold your hand and end it.  And this apathy bleeds in my emotional state. It seems to mute what I feel, so that everything is duller, and the only thing strong is the depression, whenever it comes